Today is somehow quite a horrible day for me. I am feeling horrible even as I end the day and writing this entry on my bed.
Feeling bad. Having many negative thoughts. Cast them down.I just have to go to rest I guess. It’s probably just the throbbing headaches.
Thought of some reasons for explaining the bad mood. One of which: Maybe I’m pregnant?! Hahah…
Just got a mail that I either pay up or send a consent to discard my little embryo (frozen). What a good time to make me feel even more emo.
I think it is really not helping that because baby sleeps in the same room that I have no chance to have a heart to heart talk with Vic. Communication to me is not just about transmitting information but connecting emotions and thoughts. It is so important for me. Just have to survive a few more months like this before Celine shifts out to sleep in another room…
I have no idea why my mood has been terrible the last 3 days… At least one good thing is that the day is over. Tomorrow will be better!
Recently, I have much thoughts and I am a little tired. Tired to think too much. So have been posting pictures on dayre.me/rehcranov and trying to stay more positive and thankful through those little posts.
Maybe it’s just the end of the year emotions. Time just flew past before much could be done or achieved. And that got me thinking about the purpose of many things that we do.
Many times, we could just enjoy life a little more if we don’t have that extra baggage of “this is what I should be” or “this is what I should have done”, etc. Well, if it’s done wrongly, just do it better the next round. If it’s wrong decision and wasted time, reflect and move on. Time can’t turn back. Smile. The year is a lot more than the “what you should have done” or “what you should be”.
I’m sure there were a lot more happy moments than I could think about now at this current state of emo-ing. Cheer up Von! Cheer up. Next year will be a greater and better year! (And perhaps a bit more sleep may help…)
A friend just introduced this new app, Dayre, to me. Similar to Instagram but it looks more like a blog for the day. So far, I like it very much that I can just put up a photo and enter a note for it. And the entries are organized by day which I can view as a whole. At the end of the day, I have a blog post for the day.
Download Dayre and follow me at dayre.me/rehcranov.
If you have not helped me with my poll on whether to combine the blogs or let them remain separate ones, please help me cast a vote. Don’t worry. No collection of info so I won’t even know who voted. Thanks!
Hey all! As you all know that I have had this blog for a long time and this year I started a blog to blog about my interest in beauty stuff at Venus Von. After a few months at it, I am still very much into beauty stuff and not a bit less. But I have been wondering if it was really necessary to have 2 different blogs.
When I decided to start the other blog just to post on beauty related stuff, it was so that I don’t bore my existing blog readers on my interests on beauty stuff. You know… health issues, family and baby are quite different from foundation, nail polish and sorts. BUT, I have been thinking… I am, afterall, the SAME person, whether I talked about my great joy in holding my baby or my disappointment with a new shampoo that I had tried. So. Should I combine the blogs? As such, can you help me decide by doing the poll below. You can leave me a comment too. Thank you!
Celine went for her vaccination this morning. Besides slight fever and bad appetite, she is fine. I was the one that was not feeling well the whole day…
I woke up with bad headaches. By the time I came back from the polyclinic with Celine, my head was exploding… I couldn’t even stomach a quarter of a roti prata nor my daily cup of kopi-o. Ran to the toilet to pass motion and after that vomit whatever I could and felt a little better. I think all these reactions are body’s way of relieving pain. It was just crazy. Haven’t felt so terrible in a long while.
Slept and slept but still wasn’t feeling exactly well. But at least I could still do some work and read some stuff. Going to crash on my bed again.
How I wish I could still look so cute like Celine even when unwell.
The music of the Christmas carols from a colleague’s comp (ya. A little early right?) kinda made me a little emo. Dreamt of a friend who’s overseas and kinda miss him. Thought about the missed celebrations and going to miss celebrations. Emo emo.
Sometimes, people just don’t know how much they are missed. Yes. Cos we don’t say it right? I guess it’s both ways.
This baby is just too cute. She was so tired the whole day but was fighting sleep as long as she sees Vic and I. So finally, she fell asleep while Vic was carrying her in this manner. We realised that she had fallen asleep after we bade goodbye to our cousins. Just such a cute sight.
Sometimes, something as simple as this is just satisfying enough. Had much thoughts these few days, and wonder why some people made things so complicated. Isn’t being simply in love good enough? Isn’t simply thankful good enough? Isn’t being simple good enough?
Psa 4:6-8 (ESV)
6 There are many who say, “Who will show us some good? Lift up the light of your face upon us, O Lord!”
7 You have put more joy in my heart than they have when their grain and wine abound.
8 In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.
God has already put so much into our hearts. If we could simply look on with a simple heart, life would be so much easier and happier.
My legs are aching like mad. O well, it’s my very zealous holiday mood working up on me… I walked for 30 min back to hotel even though my legs were already aching after 3 days of shoppings. You know, when you are in a good mood you just do stupid things… *regret*
Group photo 1 Thanks Angeline for the photo!
Group photo 2 Thanks Angeline for the photo!
I have no energy to organize my photos yet. Thanks to Angeline for the photos!
Going to sleep and hopefully I get the energy and mood to organize my photos and thoughts on the trip. Great company, great trip!
My eyes couldn’t focus to have a clear look at something. That’s when I suddenly realised I am super duper tired.
As expected, Celine kept attempting to flip in her sleep again. Thank God we had the 2 bolsters obstructing her from flipping. But she cried cos she wasn’t able to flip. Strangely, she was also still alseep. How did she know she couldn’t flip and still can whine about it in her sleep? No idea.
Well, this did not mean that we had good sleep… We woke up many many times. Vic counted about 8 times or more for him. For me, I think I only woke up about 4 times. As usual, I was too soundly asleep to hear her very soft whining… Terrible mommy.
Vic is really a doting father. I had never thought that he will be sooooo hands-on and really soooooo…. (what’s that word?) LOVING as a father. My dad was never that hands-on in taking care of me and my siblings when we were young so I was all prepared that Vic would not take care of Celine. But I was SO WRONG. In fact, he is such a protective father and so hands-on. He knows how to bathe Celine. To date, I HAVE NOT even bathed Celine once. Yep. Not even once. Unless washing her butt of her stools counts. But that was also just ONCE. Ha!
Vic tries to feed Celine whenever he is at home, which are the 2 weekends and our off days on Monday. Which means he knows how to burp her as well. He also knows how to change her diaper and change her into her PJ. He plays with her and makes her giggle.
Whenever, I think of all these, I just feel so grateful. And with a very hands-on father, I am sure ready for another baby. Just that I am not quite sure if he is. Cos that means he would be handling 2 needy babies plus a sleepy-head wife. Hehe.
Yesterday night (or this morning), Celine kept flipping to face down WHILE SHE WAS ASLEEP. For one and a half hour, Vic was flipping her back to lie on her back and all this while, Celine was deeply asleep. This worried Vic lots. Celine stopped flipping and Vic also went back to sleep.
At 6plus in the morning Vic woke up and felt that it’s way too quiet and checked on Celine and realised she was face down motionless (almost). Scared everything out of him and he rushed over to flip Celine back to see her staring with her big innocent eyes at Vic. Ok, she is fine but Vic is not. All through the night I had no idea what happened and only woke up at the last incident when Vic asked me how and somehow, I heard it and woke up to realise what happened.
For the rest of the day, both of us were somehow disturbed about it. Thank God for wisdom, Vic came up with a brilliant idea after the whole day of pondering (most likely praying too). Put the bolster to block her from flipping fully. ;P
She slept sideways for about an hour and is now on her back again. I hope Vic and I get to have a good night of rest.
A good thing for the day is that Celine didn’t reject the steamed and blended potato that I made for her. She ate quite a bit. Look at how happy she was eating the potato. Potato-lover, just like me!
I actually had a shopping date with my sister and her 9-month old son but my dear sleeping beauty fell asleep while I went to the toilet to relief my stomache. It started raining and Celine just kept sleeping for the next 2 hours. Boo! Another off day at home. :S